woah. all the crazy papers are over.. i feel more at ease now. after next week, ITS THE HOLIDAYS! okay well not quite. its the long weekend, and we have friday to monday off. thats only 2 days but thats okay with me. but some lucky ducks in school finish exams on tuesday, SO they have like tuesday arvo to monday off. thats SIX WHOLE DAYS! almost a whole week off school! OH MY SON LAH! that uber gigantenormusly NOT FAIR. but who's complaining. at least i have my papers spread out and not crammed together. OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH! its like. an hour something till LOVE MG! WAHHHHH. i wanna gooooo. ): thats majorly unfair that i dont. oh well. at least i have OCF to go to. heehee.
ahh. did i mention how relieved i am.. this weekend is going to be quite hectic though. :S OCF today, then on sunday, i'm going to have to figure out how to find my way to subi church. and reach there by 10.30. i hope we do make it there on time. and safely. hhehhheh. knowing me and my CAO1 LAN4 (beyond terrible) map reading skills, i think.... thats a high possiblity. HEHHEH. DEEEE! thanks so much for your map! haha. and yeah. i hope i dont get lost. :D
that means i have to cram all that i have to study into sat. and thats english and calc. i've got to memorise all these quotes from streetcar, about a boy and last hours. OH MY GOODNESS. i can do it i can do it. plus calc. hehheh. i havent started on the revision pack yet. except for the 2001 paper, which i took 4 whole periods in school to do (thats 50 mins a period. thereabout) hehheh. wonderful arent i.
i can i can i can i can i can I CAN!
a shout of praise.
5:07 PM
OH MY GOSH!
ITS LOVE MGS TMR!!!!!!!!!!!
a shout of praise.
8:52 AM
urggggh. other than the fact that the exam period is actually a really good time to be in quiet and not have crazy year 8-10s running around in the corridor screaming and squealing at each other just beacuse there's something icky in the toilet or they just discovered the thrill of competing against each other at a 5m dash into the first floor landing, and you can finally study in peace, i realised that i cant fully concentrate cos something keeps bugging me and i dont know what that something is. gah.
and i know i'm not prepared for econs and its starting in half an hour. gleeeep.
at least after the paper i know that i can start worrying about chem. hehheh.
mannnn. i cant wait for the weekend to come.
You said ask and you will receive Whatever you needYou said, ask and I'll give the nations to youoh Lord, thats the cry of my heart
a shout of praise.
8:43 AM
WOOHOOOO~ we're starting a bible study group.. (: actually not really.. its just a group of us doing qt together in the morning in my room except seperately. (: and me and jeannie are pulling more people to church (: thats good news ay! haha. i feel so happy all of a sudden. and excited!! (: our dream is to start a christian fellowship in school (: or maybe it was God's idea in the first place. HEEHEE. cool cool cool. now all we have to do is pray for more participants and for all the doors to open (meaning like permission and everything) so that we dont have to worry about anything then we will be able to concentrate fully on studying. :D :D :D wheeeeee~ so GUYS (i've always wondered if this was a sexist way of calling people) !!! keep us in prayer okay! (:
i dont care what they say about me its alright its alrighti dont care what they think about meits alright they'll get it one daycos i love you and i'll follow youyou are my, my lifei will read my bible and prayi will follow you all dayI don't care what it costs anymoreCos' you gave it all and I'm following youI don't care what it takes anymore No matter what happens I'm going your waycos i love you and i'll follow you
you are my, my life
i will read my bible and pray
i will follow you all dayAll DayAll Day nowAll DayI'll follow YouAnyone around can see just how good you've been to meFor all my friends that don't know youI pray that you would save them toop.s.: it looks like its gonna rain buckets today. the sky's like black and everything. and there's like thunderclaps and hoowhee. looks like a great day to sleep in but i cant cos i have to study. rightyo. thank goodness its study leave today. heehee. i dont think i can cope with another day in school doing nothing when i can be studying. exams start tmr guys! praypraypray hard for meee! :D
a shout of praise.
7:25 AM
Crucified, laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose, trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all
i cant believe the way Your love has got a hold on me
each morning i wake to find You near
You set me above my fears
and set my feet on solid ground
all of my days belong to You
and i breath in Your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire
and i stand here before You
in wide open wonder
amazed at the glory of You
the power of heaven revealed in Your purpose in me
as i'm reaching for You
a shout of praise.
8:32 AM
have you ever wondered what you would do when you're this close to death? have you ever thought of the question? maybe you're suffering from a pain in your abdomen that lasted for a whole 20 minute duration and it hurt so bad that you felt like you were going to die.. or something. what would you do?
and what would you do if you were watching someone suffering from that pain? how can you reach out to help that person, when you dont know how to? when all you can do is just stand there and pray really hard for that person, it even becomes too shocking to cry.. its just so painful to see the person scream in short bursts of agony and whimper when its hurting to much to even make a noise. can you imagine how the person's family member(s) would feel like?
all you can do is just pray and pray and pray for healing and His grace to fall on this person. i'll never know how much it hurt that person but all i know is that it almost had the power to kill. and it was scary. really scary.
i wonder if i will fear death when it comes knocking on my door, despite knowing that i will have eternal life after death.. hmm. there's just so many what will happen's in my mind right now.
it just makes me appreciate what i have now..
EverlastingYour light will shine when all else fadesNever endingYour glory goes beyond all fameAnd the cry of my heartIs to bring You praiseFrom the inside outLord my soul cries out
a shout of praise.
10:47 PM
well. its already week three and the week is ending. gah the term is passing so quickly. 7 more weeks and then term is over. :( :( :( NOOOooooooooooo. although i would very much like to go home. BUT ITS JUST THAT TEE IS COMING AND I'M STILL NOT PREPARED! at least not as prepared as i was for Os.. gah.. and my chemistry is like going down the drain. bonding is CRAZYYYYY i tell you. this is like the first time EVER i do so badly for chemistry. EVER okay. and i feel so unconfident now about doing well at all for chem.. ):
i just hope everything will become better soon (: maybe i should start putting in more effort. hmm. going to stay over at jeannie's this weekend and we're going to study HEAPS this weekend. at least there's OCF and church to look forward to. (: whoopiedoops.
a shout of praise.
5:30 PM
the story of the willow tree
Once upon a time there lived two farmers, Tom and Harry, who worked on the same farm, and that fateful day, it so happened that nothing went right. The tractors refused to work, it started to rain and they could not collect their harvest. Soon, it was time to go home. Unfortunately for farmer Tom, his car broke down, and he could not get home. So, farmer Harry suggested that he would send tom home, after dinner at harry's house.
So Harry drove the both of them home. upon reaching Harry's house, they both got out of the car, and outside of Harry's house, there stood this huge willow tree. before entering, Harry went over to the tree, closed his eyes and touched it. He smiled. And they both went in for dinner. Harry greeted his with a huge smile and hugged and kissed them, feeling enourmously happy despite his terrible day at work. Tom was amazed. After dinner, Harry sent Tom home. Before Tom got out of the car, he couldnt help but ask about how Harry could feel so happy when everything that could go wrong did go wrong at work today, and what was up with that willow tree anyway?
Harry replied, " well Tom? To you, that willow tree might just be an ordinary willow tree, but to me, that willow tree is my worry tree. After work i would touch that willow tree and leave all my worries and anxieties behind before bringing it into my house, where it should be a happy place. I dont want my wife and kids to worry along with me. and the next day before i go to work, i will pick them up again from my tree, but strangely by then, most of them have already disappeared. And then i am happy again."
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer or petition, with thanksgiving,
present your requests to God. And the
peace of God which transcends all understanding, will
guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." philippians 4:6-7
a shout of praise.
8:15 AM
*%#_(^)*@^)*&^%)*&^#%*&#^)*&#%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M HIGHLY STRESSED OUT!!! it's a saturday morning and what am i doing being cooped up at the boarding house studying for all my tests next week!!!! garrhhh.. this is SO STUPID. do you know what i have on? i've got an english AB (essay exam) at 8am on monday PLUS a calc test on THE SAME DAY, and then econs on tues and then chem on wed. you know, i think my probability of passing is going to be like nil. stressss. but its okay. i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (:
oh yes, about how i met gilly at church. well rmb i went to subiaco church last week? turns out that HEAPS of people from singapore around our age go there! okay maybe not heaps. just gilly and that girl from primary school who left for perth (i dont know her name still) and my dance senior, and like i met their friends and everything. it was heeeeeps cool okay! i didnt know mg people landed in perth too. i thought they all just flocked to melb. but COOLIOS! and then after when me and jeannie and her dad went for lunch we bumped into andrea and oli (and tess and their parents) at the foodcourt. hah. i just love weekends ay. always such a time to relax.
THEREFORE WHAT I HAVE NOW ISNT A WEEKEND! ITS JUST A STUDYEND. BLEAGHHHH.. #()&@(*&.
CHRISTINE! I WILL GO TO MELB ONE DAY!! I NEED TO SITE VISIT! HAHA. yeah. go and see the unis there and everything. one day.. i'll tell you when though!
oh yeah! guys did i tell you!!! i'm going to be staying for founders day!!! and you know how you guys have to wear your school blazer and everything when you all go up to collect your certs and everything? i was thinking of wearing my school's winter uniform!! hhahahahhaha. that would be the joke of the day man :D its going to be hilarious. and i'm going to be the only one wearing that uniform. :S but anyways. its going to COOL cos i'll meet EVERYONE AGAIN! WAHAHHA. happy happy! we should all have like a mgs '05 gathering after! WOOTS. that would be damn cool la. :D kaye go and organise with miss ho! (haha. i feel so superior delegating work to you although i think you probably wont bother cos you have exams and stuff. So, i'm just kidding (: )
ooh. i went for my school's music night last night where all our music groups performed! and the
hale st mary's concert band is going on tour in singapore (and malaysia but who cares about the malaysia part) and GUYS! by then you all would have finished exams SO GO AND WATCH OKAY! they're really good and they're playing stuff from chicago and all. heehee. they're gonna be at RI and st margs (but i dont think you guys can watch them at those schools except maybe kaye cos your school is right next to RI) and sentosa and raffles city (how ironic that they're going to play at all the raffles places) and YEAH! cool. haha.
YIPPIEEEEEee. i feel happier now. back to work then.
a shout of praise.
9:19 AM
certain lessons can be so random sometimes. like today in the middle of someone's presentation for english someone next door started playing the cello. and all of a sudden mrs jefferson started talking about how this huge labrador suddenly ran into her classroom the other day amidst teaching romeo and juliet to her year 10s and circled the inside, then ran out. how queer.
hmm. today we had to fill in our testimonial sheet thingies of what we've done from year 8 to year 11. kinda like the cca record thingies that we always do at the end of the year in mg.. and well, since i obviously wasnt here in any of those year groups previously mentioned i had to sit and watch everyone fervently trying to recall what they had actually been doing in this school for the past 4 years. at least i had the company of lisa, who also happened to be the other new girl this year. she transfered from another school so technically she wasnt that "new". but anyways. we talked chinese for ages. (HAHA. see guys, my chinese wont deprove when i'm here!) and yeah. it was cool (: i like talking to lisa.
oh well. todays chem check wasnt that bad after all. i'm quite okay about it. although i didnt know what the molar vol of 30.0 degrees at 99.3 kPa was. hmm. but i think everything else was okay. hopefully. probably will get the check back tommorrow. (gahs. i know! how fast do the teachers work! :/ )
i will live to love youi will live to bring you praisei will live a child in awe of you
a shout of praise.
5:40 PM
i think the most frustrating thing on earth is trying to get the right temperature of water when you're showering. cos since its so cold now you would want to shower with HOT water so you on the hot water tap first and its just the right temperature. but this is when you just turn the hot water tap on. then the water gets like really scalding hot and your skin burns. and then you have to put some cold water in and then after a while it gets too cold and then you have to adjust it again. its SO irritating. why cant people just invent "just the right temperature" taps? bah. and then the worst thing is having to get out of the shower after hours (not literally) of adjusting and
FINALLY getting the right temp because 1, you're wasting water. 2, ITS FRIKING COLD when you're not under hot water. and btw, it is a good idea to shower when no one is using the shower cos then that means there is still going to be some hot water available for you to use. otherwise, just forget about even getting the right temperature. have a cold bath instead.
bleagh. i've got a chem in class assignment first thing tmr morning on bonding :S and i'm highly stressed that i'm eating HEAPS of junk food. maybe its just that its in front of my face. but GAH. i just dont get some stuff ): $)(#@!&(*#&(*^ I CANT BELIEVE CHEMISTRY IS KILLING ME! chemistry is my top subject and i'm dying. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo.
a shout of praise.
7:16 PM
i'm currently spending this weekend at jeannie's house, and its so cool! haha. its this little appartment in east perth and yesss! i get to use internet here. happy happy (: went for her cell's bible study thingy last night and i thought it was awesome! i miss cell in sg already. ): but at least last night was a good thing (: yeah. jeannie's cell leader reminded me of so many people! she looked like a female version of a cross between kenny and clement (from fga not the ken and clem in sg) and her personality is so much like joce our dear lovemg megaboss. her laughter is EXACTLY the same! and yeah. freaky.
but cell was cool! going to go to her church tmr. i think its called subiaco church. or something like that. i'll guess i'll go look around first. i dont really want to impose on jeannie and her dad every week. quite paiseh also if he has to keep paying for me. probably have to stay in a few weeks though. i should get started studying for exams.. and then the week after my dad's coming down so then i dont really have to think so much about where to stay and stuff. we should just get an appartment and i come down every weekend to stay. that will be HEAPS easier. then i dont need to think about imposing on anyone. right? but then again its kinda a waste if i have to pay rent the whole time and not stay. we should just buy a house anyway.
complicating.
a shout of praise.
8:11 PM
oh man. i've been sleeping so much. i dont know why i'm always so tired. i mean, i sleep at like 10pm and wake up at like 7.30 (well today was like 830), and in class i always feel so tired and after school i feel like napping.. i think the only time which i feel awake is during prep. WHICH IS ONLY 2 HOURS! gahhh. what IS wrong with me. i cant study being like this.. ):
and GAHHH. there's xcountry training in the morning tmr. AND ITS TIME TRIALS. i really dont feel like being in the team already. CAN I PLEASE QUIT!! do you know that on some days we have like 6 k runs along west coast highway PLUS on others we have like hill training AND log training. (i have absolutely NO idea what that is but it doesnt sound fun at all.) i'm feeling lazy again. heh.
oh wells. maybe i shall start getting started on my work. then maybe go over to the PAC to borrow their piano to practice the piece for interhouse singing tonight so that i'll be ready to play it for jaz tmr.. gah. i cant do thiss. i dont even know how the song sounds like!! so basically what i'm playing now sounds hell crappy cos everything's off beat (and the song's syncopated. so. yeah. syncopated + offbeat = uber wrong). stresss. oh well. i promised so i have to do it. all the best to me.. :D
boohoooo. i miss my 7oclock and 9 oclock chinese tv programmessss~~~~!!!!!
a shout of praise.
4:36 PM
okay remember how i said that this term is ust going to be awesome? well scrap that. i think i'm going to faint from the work load! there's so much things to study for.. i've got HEAPS of tests in the next two weeks to study for.. and stupid hale has decided to push the calculus tests forward so we dont have as much time to study for it. luckily its differentiation so it isnt that bad. (and andrea thinks calc is her easiest subject. SHE IS CRAZY.) i need more practice! and there arent any tys-es to practice with.. :S DIE. and on top of tests the teachers are piling us up with homework. by the truck loads. I'M NOT KIDDING. stressss~
but luckily i've got private study almost everyday (except day 1's..) oh btw my sch timetable is like this 6 day cycle thingy. so the 6 day cycle repeats in a 5 day week. well i dont know how to explain. like if today's monday and its day 1 next monday would be a day 6. yupp. so anyways. and i get double private study on day 2's and 4's. hip hurray. (: thank god for 5 subjects.
well. school has started. hopefully i'll still be alive and kicking at the end of term. (: heaps of stuff to do next term break! :D :D :D :D :D
oh well. more updates soon. on to save my table from collapsing from the piles of books and stacks of paper. :"D
-cue superwoman music-
a shout of praise.
7:10 PM
well. another term of school started today.. not much to say. but i'm glad i'm here too. glad to see the crazy giggling girl and my beach buddy (although its pretty much unlikely that we'll be going to the beach anytime soon), the arty farty woman, the michael lee counterpart, the girl-who-always-eats-pie-for-lunch, the retard, peanut and sugar, and the china ladies, and miss-raise-my-hands. in other words? dee, esh, kita, andrea, nat, xiao, april, lisa and shuyi, and valeria :D yes yes. it just seemed like yesterday since i saw them and the hols just flew past just like that! welcome back to FREEZING aussieland. hahhaha. AND OH MY GOSH. FREEZING WITH A CAPITAL F-R-E-E-Z-I-N-G! and hello winter uniforms. i cant believe the skirt is SO FRIKING LONG. i should have been smart like jeannie and brought it back to alter. (is it brought? sounds funny. or is it bring) anyway. i FROZE. i was wearing my jumper AND blazer and it was still so cold. and there were people who were just walking around without either. OH MY DUCK. how strange.
yesterday was such an embarrassing day. went up the plane and sat in the wrong seat cos i saw the wrong row number. bleagh. then i accidentally stepped on the guy's foot when i needed to go to the toilet. and i stained my shirt with chocolate (and it wouldnt come off). oh yes. and i spilt abit of lemonade on myself cos there was a bit of turbulence. then after i got off the plane i realised i didnt fill in the entry form thingo as i was queueing up. and so i had to leave (and everyone was watching me btw) the queue and fill in one. then when i finally got to the counter, i accidentally tore the slip of paper and i had to fill in another one (again everyone was watching.) and that was just getting through customs. after i lugged my luggage off the rolling thingy i realised i forgot to take a trolley. and i couldnt lift the luggage cos it was hell heavy.. and this kind gentleman helped me. and to return the favour i ACCIDENTALLY rammed the trolley into his legs. HOW EMBARRASSING! that was like the worst airport experience ever!
anyway. i dont know why i've been feeling so tired lately. i sleep so much. i've been sleeping almost 12 hours a day and i still feel tired. how strange. :S slept at 9 last night.. and i still felt so stoned in class today. and boy did the teachers notice. i'm sleeping early again tonight. plus there's cross training tmr after school. I'M SO DEAD.
a shout of praise.
7:06 PM
